February 2010
11 posts
The 22nd Lie
I thought you were my love, I thought you were my everything. I believed that it was you who would be my last love. I smiled only for you. I lived only for you. I was happy and believed in your love. Everything’s a lie, it’s all a lie. Your love is all a lie. Because I’m hurting like this. Because you hurt me like this, it’s love that causes tears. You’ll only love...
January 2010
22 posts
The 21st Realization
I’ve realized how people always come to be for advice. I’ve realized how people always trust me with everything. I’ve always realized how a lot of people want me to be with them. But I’ve realized that I only want to be with the people I can rely on. I only want to tell secrets to the people I trust. I only want to be with the people I love. People have been charging into...
The 20th Matchmaker
Haha, so today I went with Dj to get my matchmaker results and the results were the most funniest thing ever! xD Dj and I were just walking to the south and she asked me who I was matched with. I said, eh just some Freshman…Tony…TONY?!? Dj said, Tony like your cousin’s Tony? I said, I don’t know. I don’t really know his last name. Dj said, I think that’s his...
The 19th Sunday Of Pain
I can’t believe it. What I didn’t want to happen. I recently told someone that my grandma (mom’s mom) would be leaving for China to get surgery. Now today, I got the news that my grandpa (dad’s dad) was in the hospital. Oh my goodness. I was so scared. I asked my dad what happened and they said he had a stroke. My heart dropped. No not my grandpa… anybody but my...
The 18th List Of People
Hrm, just getting bored… so here’s a list of mostly all the people I talk about in my blog. and no i’m not going to say who they are. xD
-he- … mhmm, check out those dashes.
cousin … [:
cousin t
dj
vlaoii
vniaiv
ricwen
owner
junjun
beetha
can’t think of anymore at the moment, but i’ll edit this when i do. :3
The 17th Heartbeat
Aww, it was such a nice Friday, after school, I don’t really care anymore that I didn’t get perfect on my French test. So after school, me and Dj were walking and I didn’t see cousin during the walk to the north, so I had a feeling, and went straight to the tennis corner where the asians were. And cousin was there. She told how she was getting pissed at JunJun, and how she was...
The 16th Year Of Bad Luck
I’ve always wondered what was good in my life. Everyday of the year, I’d have bad luck. No, even if I didn’t have any bad luck all day, then @ 11:59 PM, something bad will happen. Does life hate me that much? Each day just seems to be getting worse. My ultimate goal in life is to not have bad luck for at least one day. Never once, not in my 5882 days of living, have i NOT have...
The 15th Time I've Wished
I often wonder just how can it be, but everytime I think about it seems impossible to me. I wanna touch you, call out your name. Would you be my love? Would you be my friend? Would you feel the same? What if wishes all came true and each one had a star that would keep it shining brightly however near or far. What id a miracle appeared and heaven as here for us to see… What if you were to...
The 14th Try To Not Love
I should go. I should hurry up and go. Because my stubbornness will turn to tears. I should hurry so I won’t see you left behind. A bit faster, I should hurry and go. Our departing love, it’s crying now. Our overflowing sadness spills out. It’s hard… even just one step forward. So I just stand crying with my back on you. Don’t love, goodbye will always come. It hurts...
The 13th Face Of Boredom
The 12th Night of Heartache
I really don’t know what to say. bad things have been coming at me one after one after one. One of it is discrimination. To be honest, i’ve never been discriminated in my life, but seeing my close friends and family being discriminated, made me unhappy. I really really REALLY hate people who are racist. I didn’t think much people are racist nowadays, but i guess i was wrong.
...
The 11th Story
THE FUNNY LOVE STORY OF BAI AND NGO;;
Once there was a Ngo and a Bai. The first time Bai and Ngo met, it was like love at first sight for Bai, but who really believes love at first sight? I know I don’t. Unfortunately for Bai, Ngo has someone else. Bai didn’t care, as long as they are not together yet, Bai will not give up on Ngo. So the plan was set. To get Ngo’s attention. Bai...
The 10th Stage Of Happiness
Finally, I get my happiness back. After realizing it, i don’t really care if i go to winter formal anymore. Giving up my love for love is not easy. i chose my other love, my commitment to tams. A fact, yes he’s going to go to winter formal, sigh, but not with me, oh no no no. he’s probably going to go with another person.
i went to the winter dance recital tonight, it was okay....
The 9th Time For Crying
All these bad things just keeps shooting at me lately.
first mock interview, i reeeally don’t want to this, i think its stupid. :P
social studies presentation, the people in my group keep screwing around and they don’t even do anything.
my freaking heater broke.
i have a fxcking messy room.
my homework isn’t done.
i don’t get anything in class.
my computer is being...
The 8th Chapter: Negligence
我不关。。。
我知道我不是完善的人
但是您应该喜欢我吗？
我是粗心，我知道。
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that’s hard. ]: please don’t translate it.[: thanks.
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I’ve made many mistakes in my life
my carelessness made those mistakes.
i’m such an idiot.
The 7th Storm Of Bordom
I’m really bored lately, there’s always nothing to do anymore.
there’s no place to go. shopping doesn’t seem that excited anymore, everything is the same at the mall.
school is super boring.
internet has no new stuff, no new updates to read.
no new dramas to watch.
everything seems the same.
my life is boring except for summer.
oh i wish it was summmmmer.
The 6th Meeting
The first time we met, i thought he was weird. i thought he was the weirdest asian boy ever. i’m not even kidding. i thought he was annoying and mean. i remember, i was tutoring his class in 8th grade, i hated it. i didn’t want to tutor a 7th grade math class. i mean, i just learned that stuff last year! i can’t remember all that stuff! and the students always always always ask...
The 5th Time I Was Dumbstruck
i can’t believe i did not notice it earlier.
because of confusion, i’ve lost you.
because of school, because of love, because of me.
i don’t blame anyone else, it wasn’t anybody’s fault. it was mine.
because i was with him, i wasn’t with you.
because i like several people, i wasn’t with you.
because you never told me, i didn’t want to like...
The 4th Bubble Of Hope
Hehe[: Don’t you love it when you think everything’s not going your way, but then suddenly a small bubble of hope rises. [: i really hope nobody pops it. =P like… vlaoii, i don’t really care about vniaiv; i know they have nothing going on.
gah; i can never finish a blog. ]:
the 3rd day of misunderstanding explains the first.
when you didn’t look at me at all when i...
The 3rd Day Of Misunderstanding.
- - - no doubt that life hates me - - -
misunderstanding number 1 ; i had to ask my cousin’s boyfriend if he wanted to go the football game with her. he said no. all -he- heard was the ‘no’.
misunderstanding number 2 ; i had to ask my cousin’s boyfriend if he wanted to hang out with her after school, he said no. rejection number two, and guess who just happened...
The 2nd Chance @ Modeling
i really hate watermarking everything[: BUT ! i’m okay with it.[:
if you want to look ALL the pictures and WITHOUT the watermarks, go ahead and tell me, i’ll show you in person.[:
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The 1st Sign Of Love
i don’t really get love actually. ]:
so what is love ? is it….
001. the way your heart beats when you see him?
002. the way your legs can’t move?
003. the way your voice is all shaky?
004. the way your face turns red?
005. when you can’t stop thinking about him?
006. when you can’t stop talking about him?
007. when he makes you happy?
008. when he cheers...